Awakener

Not sure why I'm writing, I just have the urge to write and if I ignore the Muse on my shoulder then I am lost.

I am happy today, exceedingly happy. Within my personal daily life, I have little to be upset or sad about. Sure I'm not rich, everything I own is second hand, according to the strictures of my society I am in poverty and should be downcast appropriately.

What is poverty? The lack of money, of material things, of a house, two cars, a spouse and 2.5 children? I say poverty is blindness, the inability to see past all of the shit people accumulate in their lives to fill the hole of sadness, emptiness and loneliness which gapes inside them. I say poverty is when you are poor in heart and spirit. When there is no real meaning to your life, you just work for the money to keep your toys and pour the numbing drugs down your throat.

I don't care what people do for a living, what they own, how they dress, how they vote - I can about whether or not they are genuine to themselves, whether or not they can treat someone who seems different as an equal, whether or not they can push past all the crap and be real.

My dearest friends are very real, they accept the realness of others - they do not push away when things aren't going peachy, they don't say "You are acting inappropriately." When one allows their real emotions to show - instead they go right along with it.

Richness is flowing like water, taking everything there is in life and going with it, learning from it, improving your insides with it. It's pushing to clear stagnant waters, to leap and play and grab the hands around you saying "Come on! Let's laugh and sing! Who cares if you can't carry a tune."

The hard part is when the status quo pushes down and says "This is not appropriate." When you find yourself cornered by those who try to pour you into the mold of normality. What is normal anyway? Is it being cookie cutter or just being naturally you? I don't want to be an ant, mindlessly working to uphold the structure - I want to push the structure down and say "There's so much more around us! Look! LOOK!"

For this many turn their backs to me and try to exile me, say that I'm crazy and a danger to society. Some might even call me a terrorist, but I'm not into terrorizing people - I just want them to wake up and see where the real horrors are coming from. But now, awakening = terrifying and if you try to get people to wake up and stand beside you, insisting that everything needs to be changed - you are the enemy of the state.

So many refuse to see our current conditions as being the beginnings of a police state or a recession going into depression or being completely weakened and compromised - we've been pimped out by our President and instead of saying "NO!" we put our pillows back over our faces and hide from the shame which should be burning within us. We aren't a nation, we're the Whore of Babylon. We are fleshy and weak, overly decadent and bourgeois. Most of this country's citizens are NOT contributing members. What do we work for? To keep our toys running and our corporate slave collars sparkly and new?

This is a consumer nation, not a participatory one. Most could care less about participating in making anything better, they'd prefer to sit behind their computers and speculate. I've tried so many ways and times to get people excited about forcing changes - no body wants to be bothered. We have been lulled by fear into thinking that there's no way to make the changes needed, that we need the protection of our government.

People - We ARE Our Government!! Without us, they don't exist as anything other than a tyranny. Are we the subjects of tyrants or are we a democracy? It is within the raising of our voices, in the standing up and saying "NO!" which makes us a democracy. We have ultimate say, yet we have been lulled into letting others make our decisions for us and because we have our toys we keep the blinders on saying "But I've got more than you, that makes me right."

Since when does having more make someone right? That just means you can overpower someone and enslave them more easily. What part of enslavement and power equals freedom, liberty and equality??

We are so lost as a species. We fight over nothing, we cannot see past our imaginary lines to the reality outside our glass houses and people cheer when those with truth on their tongues are beaten down. When will we learn?

I am happy in my personal life - in viewing the world and humanity in general I am sad.
How does one balance that? What must I do to bring the circle into fullness?