Eureka!

I can no longer, in good conscience, act like I am bad, guilty, stupid, etc., ad nauseum. It is a slap in the face to all of those who tell me I am not.

I have acted like I am beneath and not worthy or able to keep up with so many. While simultaneously excluding those I think are worse than I.

I have pigeonholed myself into this corner of aloneness and loneliness, exclaiming "But I can't help being a freak!" Even though the persecuting are nowhere to be seen.

I am able to keep up in conversations. I am polite and courteous, I am compassionate and generous in the ways I am able to be.

I intimidate others just by being myself and by not groveling or second guessing myself or my abilities. Not because intimidation is the response sought. Instead that this is the reaction of those who usually bully and then find someone who will not take the bullshit lying down.

I am not an idiot and I should stop proclaiming it in order to convince myself, but instead start living it.

I am strong, I need not convince anyone of that. I prove it over and over again almost daily.

I am lovable and I accept the love others offer me freely, without trying to attach anything or reason behind it.

I hope each of you has a Eureka moment like this yourselves. (If you haven't already.)