The Dreaming

I work in dreams, it's one of the reasons I started my own amateur studies on neuroscience. To be able to understand the processes of the brain, in order to have a scientific grounding to a metascience field.

The subconscious is as close as we get to being omnipotent and omniscient, it does a fairly good job with it as well. At least within our own individual subjective inner worlds, but since in reality that is truly all we have - it's a big thing. Our sensory organs do not have filters, those are within the brain itself, all info on all levels enters our sensory organs the brain processes it, filters out what the consciousness does not need to function and stores the rest. All this happens so fast we are not consciously aware of it. (Sorry, little brain pun there. heh)

The subconscious has an eidetic memory of every single thing we experience, even those experiences that are filtered out. I believe that our consciousness talks to us about all the things it filtered out during the day as we sleep, it's why our dreams sometimes reflect our days but with odd twists or focuses on different details than the ones we were occupied with while awake. It's why we can search for something we've lost around the house for days and then dream of it's whereabouts and upon waking find the dream was 100% correct. Or why when we have a difficult problem we need to find a solution to, but are struggling to put all the pieces together, that in a dream it can all be laid out in perfectly understandable terms, leading (if you remember the dream upon waking) to solving a major problem in one night's sleep.

Our subconscious loves playing jigsaw puzzle with the trillions of bits of information it takes in, putting in things that it filtered out during the day as unnecessary information for the consciousness at the moment. Like say, a conversation co-workers are having in the background which contains a pertinent piece of information which would aid in your current project but at the moment of their conversation, which happened just out of conscious ear range, you didn't know you needed it. Once you are asleep and it's time for your subconscious to take the reigns, it can access that previously ignored info and piece it into the rest of your puzzle.

The same goes with internal issues, dreams reflect any turmoil, anxiety, confusion, fear, sadness, etc., etc. so that the subconscious can look at it from many different angles and figure out what it's really all about. It's the ultimate psychiatrist (unless the subconscious is "broken" as well, which is considered by today's terms true insanity, but that's a different subject.)

I have been blocked from seeing most of what's going on in my subconscious for almost a year now, it's part of my frustration and depression. It's like chopping off a limb arbitrarily and saying that I can have it back some other arbitrary point in the future, but please, act like nothing's wrong until then. The only thing I'm allowed to know about my Dreaming times is the overwhelming feeling that they are very intense, extremely lucid and almost like I'm living two separate but very real lives, one in this waking reality and one in my subconscious's reality. Kind of like Clark Kent and Superman.

For someone who works in the Dreaming, this is extremely frustrating.

I just had a flash from the depths, thanks subcon... if I was to explain what it was in my terms, many would write me off as another new age looney. So I'll take a different route to explaining it. Basically I was having nightmares a year ago regarding a man whom I allowed to break my heart, then crush it to a fine powder and in order to get them to stop I took measures to protect myself by not being able to remember them upon waking. In essence, I put up an extra filter between consciousness and subconsciousness which blocked the specific kind of communication between the two which allows for dreams to be remembered.

Though there's the warning that suddenly being able to remember my dreams again fully may not be the most pleasant of experiences - I think this is just one of those warning klaxons placed to remind oneself to be Very sure about proceeding further. Kind of like Hal in 2001: Space Odyssey - trying to warn Dave away from turning him off - leaving this filter on would cause more harm than good in the long run.

I must say I had one dream tonight (I've already been to bed and slept for 5 hours) that woke me up in the middle of it with the urge to act immediately on the solution it gave me to an issue with a friend. I got up and thought about it when the urge to write the proscribed email hit me in a wave once more and so I got up and wrote it, exactly as I was shown in my dream. What happened in the dream before that I don't know, what else I dreamed in those 5 hours I don't remember either, but just the act of remembering that part so succinctly is wonderful to me.

It's the reason I started writing this entry actually, so two good things out of my subconscious from one partial dream. Man, if we could just believe in our subconscious's abilities we would become nie on supermen ourselves, it's probably a good thing there's so many filters between it and the consciousness.

Maybe part of our next evolution is tapping further into our subconscious and dropping some of the extraneous filters we have up. It's a thought.

For more info on lucid dreaming go here: http://www.dreamviews.com/