Nice

I'm so content right now.
I realized today that I've finally accepted my need to learn better interpersonal habits, better romance habits and new ways of looking at the whole enchilada.
I don't attract just the bigoted, alcoholic assholes of the world as I was starting to think.
I need to become comfortable with me, as in with this new me that I'm discovering.
It's one thing to change, it's a whole other game accepting the change 100%.

I don't need the guilt I lay on myself for being "abnormal" and I am so much happier when I'm not being an opinionated know-it-all.

Still need to work on asking people to repeat themselves when I can't hear them, instead of nodding and then accidentally changing the subject mid-topic. (Which happens more often than I'd like to admit.)

One of these days I'll get to go to eye and ear doctors to see how the deterioration is doing. It's not hypochondria or paranoia with these, I'm losing my wonderful sight and after years of clubs and big underground parties with music at deafening levels - my hearing is going as well.

Anyway, I was checking up on the 2 different dating sites I have profiles on and realized that I don't want to be on them anymore. I don't want to date anyone at the moment, I just want to improve my current friendships and learn how to accept myself 100%.